Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy New Year!

Emily, Christmas afternoon

I love blogging.

The first time I ever saw a blog was during my time at Widownet, a message board I'd found just eleven days after Dale died. I spent hours and hours on that board. I started dating a year later and continued writing about that, but once I'd met Bill (I had been widowed twenty months by then) I needed another outlet. I fell fast and hard for Bill and wasn't willing to write about it when I knew so many people were still pining for their lost loves, so in June of 2004 I followed a link posted at the bottom of Kamai40's post. That's how I found journalspace! I'm not sure if Kamai is still blogging, but she was the one that introduced me to it and I took to it like a duck to water.

All through my LDR with Bill, through Jamie's teenage rebellion, through our transition of getting custody of Em and becoming a blended family, my career changes and ups and downs - I blogged through it all.

This past August was the first time in years where I just couldn't write anymore. I couldn't write about my disppointments or my financial difficulties, my depression or my fear. It seemed like I was paralyzed and started getting through each day in survival mode.

Now that there is light at the end of the tunnel, it feels like I can breathe again. I am looking forward to dropping my hours at work, taking some classes, and blogging again. Physically, I have very little pain and most of my Fibro symptoms are in remission. Getting another vehicle will be possible sometime in January. It might be damn cold today (-26°C) but inside my little house, it's warm. My husband has a short working day and I have the day off. The kids are happy and healthy and watching RENT in the living room.

I hope you all have a wonderful time tonight. Be safe and take pics!


  1. …and a Happy New Year to you too. I’m glad to hear that things are looking up for you: I hope they continue to do so.

    Lovely picture of Emily, by the way. I think it’s the slightly doubtful expression that does it.

  2. Good for Em for letting you use a photo of her on your blog. I am under strict orders not to blog about my sons. Period. And because they alwayyyyyyys listened to me I must now listen to them.
    2010 is going to be a good one. I can tell.
    Happy New Year.

  3. I'm not allowed to feature my kids either :(. Have a great new year Kate. Glad things are looking up!

  4. Emily is so going to love you for that. Have a Happy New Year.

  5. It's so good to hear things are on the up and up for you and yours Kate. I know that 2009 was a tough year for you. Enjoy your night and look forward to the great things that are going to happen for you in 2010.

  6. Happy New Year, Kate -- you sound hopeful, and it's contagious!

  7. Thanks everyone!
    My family is pretty good about pics and blogs. They know that there's a good chance they'll be in one of my posts, lol.

  8. Kate as you might know or remember my first real foray into the internet was also Widownet -- really opened my world. It was your blog that brought me into this world - I loved how you made life "interesting", from you I met Lori E and Lou and well the rest of 2009 is history. I look forward to seeing you blog again - you are very talented and you were missed.

  9. happy new year, kate. 2010 should be a better year.